Cupids Dating Blog

First, most real-life experienced females don't look as if they're trying to emulate the girlish figures of chicks that are barely old enough to vote by starving themselves down to undernourished shapeless buds instead of their full-bloom womanhood. Second, most of the over 50 (or even just 40) crowd in my neck of the woods doesn't get so many Botox treatments that their faces are devoid of expression.

Anyway, I'm just in one of my immature stages lately that makes me crave a little adult guidance out of my mischief. I know it's supposed to bad for anyone, male or female, to be looking for a maternal or paternal, parental figure. It's just that the way I was brought up with lots of rules, but few enforced restrictions, I'm always on the hunt for enabler, as much as for someone to lay down the law and tell me to pull up my socks.

Since my vacation, my goals of gone all awry. I was supposed to stop smoking, but instead I've continued to puff away while maintaining much of the holiday-inspired spread across my middle even though I've been back home for almost two months. My body shape and weight issues are always a good excuse to go on some crazy crash diet and chain-smoking regime that only leads to a smoker's cough and binge eating without just deciding I need a healthy makeover.

I need someone to tell me it's going to be all, all right, as long as I stop wallowing in smell pity and loathing. I just can't help feeling that I need to get my groove back. I mean I was never maybe the best at attracting crowd of admirers, but I always felt as if I was sort of a "chic magnet" where the beautiful people would talk to me like an equal rather than look down at me as an outsider.

Right now, when I'm faced with only wearing clothes from a certain internationally known American jeans store because they're version of a size 32 pants actually seems to be almost an entire size bigger than the tag says, it's hard to think that I'm setting sexy back, rather than bringing it back. I think that maybe I just need someone older and wiser to talk some sense into me.